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Over the course of several years, I experienced the despair, devastation, stress, and misery of my mental illness, as well as the euphoria, enthusiasm, optimism, and hope for the future. I felt myself trapped in a system to be medicated against my free will to control something as mysterious and destructive as mania which made me delusional and to lose my mind on several occasions. I questioned how much control I have over my own thoughts and being, who I actually was, who I could become. I theorized, analyzed, and discovered new…

A futurist sci-fi novella regarding virtual reality tech and spirituality.

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My second work consists of a story that takes place in the future, characters in search of self-discovery, and a wary situation in a secret underground settlement, where something is amiss.

I plan on using NaNoWriMo as a platform to enable myself to work nonstop on my novel posted on Channillo as a series of small chapters.

For a long time, I have been fascinated by dreams. Lucid dreaming to be particular, a mode by which we can directly interact with the subconscious realms in our mind. …

Just be there for them

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Everyone is different. In deeper stages of depression, you feel almost hopeless and everything turns gray, like boring and monotone, and things don’t feel like they have a purpose. All sense of excitement or wonder is gone too, so you’re not really fully human anymore. These people sleep a lot and spend a lot of time alone, but for them, isolation is the worst. You can get stuck in your own thoughts and the depression can become worse.

I think it’s hard for someone who can’t imagine what it’s like to from the outside offer comfort or advice. The advice…

On such a small dose, anything can happen.

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I need a small coffee once before noon to feel hypomanic the whole rest of the day and become super productive often to the state of loss of focus on wishing to have fun and experience the joys of life instead of working.

Hypomania for me is an exquisite feeling of power over myself and my life as if I can do anything and the world is at my fingertips. I don’t get this feeling all the time. It’s only when I’m bold enough and that’s when I’m on the manic side, extroverted and energetic beyond measure.

I would much…

An interest in self-awareness and personal development.

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I write to understand myself. Typically I do not have an internal dialogue going so my thoughts are quite inaccessible to me unless I speak them or write them down. When I do not write for a long while, I feel like something essential is missing. That distinct opportunity to reason with myself is lost and I wonder what is really happening. That’s why I continue to write each and every day even if it is just a little. I need that release and that validation that what I feel internally matches with what I truly think.

Recently, I discovered…

Speaking from a stable state.

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I struggled for a month cycling from mania to depression and back undergoing a massive shift in my perspectives on life and regaining a sense of clarity and control. Over the decade or so diagnosed bipolar, I developed coping mechanisms to ride the waves and emerge stronger. I put particular importance on restoration through dreams, learning how to address my problems upon awakening from the insights I reach in that amorphous and fluid dream state while I can actually think on multiple levels and see so much more.

When depressed, I engaged in self-care to give myself the motivation to…

Dreams enable us to alter our life stories.

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Why we dream is a complicated question, since so few of us are willing to admit that they are created by something other than our conscious selves, even though there is glaring evidence that we can’t possibly think on that many parallel levels to generate dream content or simulation.

There is a force within us more powerful than we can comprehend that keeps itself discreet and illicitly influences us subliminally, feeding us thoughts, memories, and even coming up with insights before we are aware of having them. With that much power and collective ability to not only understand complex information…

I am concerned about my financial well-being and net worth.

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A lot of scary things are happening in my life. I’m a millennial and we are notorious for making poor financial decisions. So far in my life, I haven’t invested in real estate. I financed my car and paid it off ahead of time, but I never took out a larger loan and paid it back, though I have currently, an excellent credit score and a stable job, so I can in fact take out a mortgage.

I am looking to buy a single-family home so that I can have a place of my own that appreciates in value over…

We do not even know what romance is.

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A relationship with anyone regardless of the type should be centered on respect, consideration, and should be seen as a responsibility. We so very often put romance on a pedestal and we should not. There are many types of romance and ways to express affection for each differing personality, and part of finding a match is seeing if that expression is adequate for your own emotional well-being and satisfaction. What do you do if your partner changes fundamentally in the middle of the relationship? Do you adjust and accept them or do you split up and move on, causing heartbreak?

I don’t think that’s how it works…

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From experience, I can tell you that you always have to try if you want to lose weight. You have to commit or make drastic changes to your lifestyle and diet. It turns out, we reach a balanced state where the body does everything it can to retain its weight. For me, I was the same weight all pandemic because I couldn’t find a way to make big changes. I didn’t have it in me emotionally and it was the cause of a huge all-enveloping depression I couldn’t escape.

I’ve started a diet that I wonder will work. It’s pre-packaged…

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