Feeling Hopeful Medicated for Bipolar Disorder
Understanding this diagnosis and its trials requires years of exposure.
How is it possible for an illness of the mind to be so systematically shut down and medicated? There is creativity and worth in the manic experience that must be considered. This is precisely how I’ve always felt and still feel today after my fourth hospitalization. I would like, beyond a doubt, to be allowed to sustain a manic episode to its conclusion without intervention and pick up on all the lessons and learnings to keep with me for the rest of my life. I did succeed once in doing this, going under the radar the whole time, and then I promptly fired my psychiatrist for hospitalizing me the time before.
I am glad to have been given a therapeutic dose of Lithium Carbonate, as it was precisely what was missing from my cocktail. Natural salt improves many symptoms. I am overcoming allergies and increasing muscle mass, and my hair is growing incredibly fast. However, much of what makes me myself is missing, and I often end up with extreme exhaustion and fatigue, losing my urge to stay up and enjoy life.
What I had while manic was the ability to:
- Generate new systems of magic based on the universe's structure and experience the universe's origin.
