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Tired Despondency and Unimpressed Boredom
Without a meaningful routine, quiet moments abound.
I don't know how this affects most people, but I get bored without a clear goal. My writing is something I can fall back on as something that intrigues me and that I keep on looking forward to, but for 6 months or so, I have been skipping my writing hobby, and it’s taken a toll on my mental health.
Feeling blocked or limited results from poor planning and an inability to harness possibilities. Our personalities diminish, and we start losing the ability to like what we used to love. We also feel numb to the feeling of missing others, activities, or experiences, as our innate desire for exploration has gone. What we can do is express these feelings to someone who is not depressed so that they might allow us to follow along and act before thinking.
Despondency comes from feeling like we are trudging through mud with a bleak outlook, losing tremendous energy. We adopt a negative outlook toward most aspects of our lives and do not even wish we did better; we absorb the feeling of having failed and being a failure.
Despite all this, a life event can turn it around, one that took patience to come across and one that more than likely would have occurred due to how the world works spiritually. And even so, nothing has…
